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Thursday, December 22, 2005

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 02:45:27 GMT

went to a Christmas party yesterday. lots of music, fun, and food. oh and did i mention cute guys? lol. well there were some there. they were pretty funny and easy to get along with. i've actually taken a liking to one guy. but anyways, i had fun. i finally got to get away from the house. so it was nice. oh and my brother's coming home tomorrow!! i'm happy!! i get to drag him around again!! (i make him take me out and i drag him along with me, whether it's shopping or going out to the movies) he's staying about a week, so i get to spend some quality time with him. : : sniff : : he's gonna go back to his base afterwards... i'm sad... (he's in the Marines) soooo yeaahhh....

it's early, for me... only 10:45, but imma go catch some Z's. been staying up lately.

peesh,
Ami

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 03:40:50 GMT

dammmmmmnnnnnniiiiiitttttt!!! My flight got pushed baaccccckkkk!! i'm still stuck in this stinking place!! gaahhh.... i'm not leaving till the 28th!! That's BS!!

now that i've finished my rambling, I was invited to my ever faithful friend's Christmas party!! It's this Tuesday, but i'm not sure if imma go or not. I mean i want to, but I got to find a RIDE!!!! But, I'll try my best to make it Kristie!! You can count on me!!

a loada crap happened this week, but i think i'll leave it unsaid. I'll let you in on a secret though, i skipped my counselling sessions with my uhhh counsellor like three times already... haha, lol.... um that's a story for another day....

aight, peash!
Ami

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 22:53:52 GMT

wow, it's been like a month since i last got on here. but thanks to those who still keep up with me!! i'm going on vacation this friday!! yes! only 2 1/2 more days of school for me!! (i'm leaving early on friday to catch my plane) i'll miss you guys, sniff....

hugz n kizzez
ami

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 02:26:22 GMT

Omgoshhhhh, i had a five day weekend (thanksgiving) and it went by sooo fast. now i hafta go back to school. : :sob sob: : i dont want to. anyways, i hope everyone had a happy TG!!

bai!!
Ami

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 02:13:44 GMT

Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 Weird Habits of Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a xanga entry about their 5 queer habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their xanga IDs. Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You are tagged" in their xanga and tell them to read yours.

5 Facts:

~ When it rains i often wish that it would rain forever because it's the thing that calms me the most.

~ When I'm bored, i would chew on the end of a straw.

~ I tend to respond with "I don't know" when people are telling me something that's actually a fact and not a question.

~ I'm a neat freak, but I'm too lazy to bother cleaning up any mess around me.

~ When I'm really bored, i talk to myself - even if it's in public.

5 People I Tagged:

~ Kristie

~ Cathy

~ Ly

~ Lysa

~ Beng

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 00:57:42 GMT

ahhh... life is sooo crappy. oh and volleyball season is over. i can get back to my "boring to death" after school lifestyle.

randomness....
Ami

Friday, November 04, 2005

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 22:17:46 GMT

ever heard of the saying that goes "life's a bitch". well that has to be one of my quotes that describes my life as of right now. everything's all shitty and screwed. all the things i thought i knew just flew out the window within a weeks time. the people i knew are all gone and the things that have been said and done has taken its toll on me. "each step you take should have a purpose". well my steps have no more purpose. almost everyone i know has believed something that's not true. i know that they know better, but in this world of war and chaos, it just leads us to believe anything nowadays. the people we meet have their purpose. well i guess i should believe that everyone that i've met have done their job and as fate would have it, everything is drifting apart. so to those of you who will believe anything that's put out there, i hope you just take time to let it sink in before accusing someone of something or talking behind someone's back. i'll just have to face all the troubles that are thrown my on my own. and to those of you who do "care", i dont want you're sympathy. i dont need pity. i don't want any of it. when it's most needed, i want it to be sincere, not like the fake smile or concern you put on to act like you know how it feels to be in my shoes. heh, it's ironic, even one of my closest family member, has turned their back on me. ... i needed help, but they just ignored me. they couldn't at least listen to me for a few moments. the connection that i had with my closest "friends" are dying and i'm being backstabbed and betrayed. i learned something pretty important after all this, i can't trust or rely on anyone.

but dont get me wrong. i at least have a couple of people who still really want to hear about my pitiful life.... thx ...

xxxxx,
ami

Monday, October 24, 2005

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 02:42:12 GMT

NEWS: alrighty, here's the thing. me and two of my cousins went to Scarowinds yesterday. (saturday) while we were there my cousin needed to call her friend so we spent who knows how long asking ppl to use their cell. finally we meet up with these two guys and she asks them. FINALLY, they have one, and let her use it. then she asked if they were waiting for someone and they said no. (btw their name is Jeffery and Brandon) so she invited them to hang with us cuz she needed to wait for her friend to call back. n e ways, it was hella cold soo she and Jeff started to get all confortable, which was kinda weird to me cuz one, she has a boyfriend in cali, and two, he was a complete stranger. back to the subject at hand. we went through this maze and we got scared the shit out of too. my older cuz, who used the phone, clung onto Jeff while me and my other cuz just held onto each of Brandon's arms. (oh, did i mention that these two guys were like 17/18 and were hella tall?) people kept jumping out at us throughout the maze and we ( me and my cuz's) screamed and jumped quite a few times. we went on about three rides together, cuz the lines were so dang long and we were just walking around too. so it was like 11:30 pm and we had to leave so we said bai to each other.

NEXT DAY: (today/sunday) my cousin, the one that clung to Brandon along with me, called me today. giving me the biggest news that i've heard since... uhhhh... a couple weeks back. but she called and told me that her sister, the one with Jeff, KISSED Jeff!! i said ".......". apparently, when me and my cuz got hungry and got a quick bite and the other three went on a nearby ride this happened. she said that her sister told her that while they were in line, the guy gave her his jacket cuz she was cold. she was playing "peek a boo" with him (how immature right? she's 18 too) and he went under the jacket and kissed her. i dont know what happened but i was told that she actually returned the kiss too........ whoo (wipes sweat off)

LATER: i let it sink in and i just am in shock and am still laughing at it. i'll be there when she realizes what she did was a mistake. i'll also be there to see her when (1) he bf finds out somehow, or (2) she admits tells him, he gets upset, and breaks up with her.... oh wait those two things are the same!! heh, aint love a bitch? especially when it was totally random and a one timer kinda thing?

still, i had fun. it was lame but at least i got scared a few times throughout the thing. haha, if you want a good scare/laugh, i guess you should go.

ami

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 01:25:40 GMT

yea, yea... it's been awhile. not like anyone actually visits my page. goes to show how many friends that i actually have. but yeah... so far we've played like six games. we lost four and won two. including the one we played today. the team's getting better and i killed my knees diving for most of the balls. (i didnt wear my kneepads) it seems like the whole or half of the team just hates me but what ever. nowadays, i could care less what ppl think of me. as long as i feel confortable i could kinda care less.

one thing that's kinda working for me is that some program's chosen me to participate in some student exchange thing to england, wales, and irland for about a month. my mom said i could go so i accepted. now all i hafta do is wait for the info to arrive and attend a meeting before i go anywhere. actually, now that i think about it, i was chosen last year too. i think it was to go to australia and some other place.

and i did get to do "something" with my life today. the schools in the district had this little event called "cool school" or something like that. the students who didnt miss any days of school, yet, got to go on a field trip to the bobcats colliseum and watch their game. of course they won, but it was kinda lame. so being as my life is so dull and filled with the typical shitty crap almost everyone deals with everyday, i'm gonna end this entry.

peace,
ami

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 01:26:44 GMT

well today was a handful... i was pissed off cuz of things that were happening and my classes made me more mad. so i was aggravated quiet all day. sorry to those who took my silence as 'i'm being a bitch today so back the hell off' i was just mad and didnt feel like talking.

thx to donna for wishing me luck on my game today. turns out we won today!! finally! we lost our first two games and now we won the third game of the season. i guess playing was a big stress reliever cus while warming up during practice before the game i started to feel a lil bit better. by game time i was relaxed so i played well. congrats to the rest of the team!!! everyone did a great job!!! we'll win our next game on monday against wilson!!!

and nothing much really happened in the week i didnt post anything. so peace out...
ami